THE LEMON MOMENTS

Do you know this feeling, when there obviously is far less, than you'd like there is? Less profit for the future, but more profit for the present.
The less there is for the future, the more there is for the present.

I am talking about a special sort of feeling. I often tend to deny it. Ironically, it is reliable, most of the time.
But it is too comfortable, too fucking fantastic to deny it and to take this other feeling instead, the contrary one. great, heart-beating, prickling. Just for the present moment. The moment of no regrets. No embarrassment. No sanity.
Often the most beautiful moments of your life.
Sour&sweet.
Worth enough to call them "lemon moments".